Today is a struggling day for me. Ever since i lost my laptop, i feel i want to get many many thing to replace it.
For example, i plan to get a MacBook for my laptop replacement. yet it is too expensive. so thought of getting more memory card or external hard disk. but i still cannot decide which 1 is better.... yet all of them is nice. and i doesn't have enough money to get it.
Then i think about Ipod touch 4. However.... after deep thinking, it is kinda luxury to me.
How about Iphone 4? thought want to sign up for data plan in digi center... however... it doesn't has any machine left for me.
Then i think about Ipad.... but it cannot help me transfer data from a memory card to external hard disk.
hmm..... all of them still a luxury for me.
after think and think and think, i still prefer a Macbook for replacement of my laptop. but kinda want a gamming console like ipod touch/ipad/iphone. in term of online method, iphone/Macbook is kinda choice of mine.
After consider so much... i didn't get any of those.... Reason is... i doesn't have the money to support all those..... haiz.... sad
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Unknown Title Story
My life is in darkness.
This is what i keep telling myself about before have my eye on you.
By the first sight i have on you, my life turned into endless nightmare.
That's why i tell myself to changed.
Change to someone that you will fall for him.
Someone that you willing to do anything for him.
Someone that will make you regret for showing up infront of him.
Someone will take away your smile forever.
While i planning for this revenge,
i also in a changing process for this revenge,
i also doing fact gathering on you for this revenge.
Then i take my 1st step for create a impressive first meeting with you.
2nd step for letting you have faith in our meeting.
3rd step for you to believe we destined together
4th step is letting you to come for me.
and the 5th step, is the step i hurt you personally.
When i in my 2nd step, i start to doubt myself about my action.
When i in my 3rd step, i wonder how wonderful if this not a revenge.
When i in my 4th step. i feel i should really be away from you.
In the 5th step, you know about my revenge, and you really being hurted,
At the same time, i'm also bieng hurted when i saw you running away with your tears.
After that day, i didn't go find you anymore.
Because i'm understand that i'm not worthy for you.
Day 2 after you run, i receive a letter from you.
It is written before that day, i'm finally know how stupid am i.
But i didn't return any letter to you.
After receiving the 1st letter from you,
Every single day i receive a letter from you.
Every letter is a day before each other.
Every letter let me feel regret.
Every letter urge me to find you.
But i'm no courage to face what i have did.
During this period,
I'm regret why i have to do this.
why should i hurt you,
and why i didn't go look for you.
On the very next day i receive the letter from you which written on our first official meeting.
You come to me with a letter.
Without any saying,
i hugging you with all my might.
i just keep telling you,
"I love you"
You didn't push me back,
We hug together without giving a damn to the world around us.
this moment is the moment i never dare to dream off.
"The Moment of Happiness"
After we calm down,
she come into my room with me.
she is impressed that i have all her letter on the wall of my room.
Then we have read the letter she carry along.
And..... We finally believe in "Love at the first sight"
This is what i keep telling myself about before have my eye on you.
By the first sight i have on you, my life turned into endless nightmare.
That's why i tell myself to changed.
Change to someone that you will fall for him.
Someone that you willing to do anything for him.
Someone that will make you regret for showing up infront of him.
Someone will take away your smile forever.
While i planning for this revenge,
i also in a changing process for this revenge,
i also doing fact gathering on you for this revenge.
Then i take my 1st step for create a impressive first meeting with you.
2nd step for letting you have faith in our meeting.
3rd step for you to believe we destined together
4th step is letting you to come for me.
and the 5th step, is the step i hurt you personally.
When i in my 2nd step, i start to doubt myself about my action.
When i in my 3rd step, i wonder how wonderful if this not a revenge.
When i in my 4th step. i feel i should really be away from you.
In the 5th step, you know about my revenge, and you really being hurted,
At the same time, i'm also bieng hurted when i saw you running away with your tears.
After that day, i didn't go find you anymore.
Because i'm understand that i'm not worthy for you.
Day 2 after you run, i receive a letter from you.
It is written before that day, i'm finally know how stupid am i.
But i didn't return any letter to you.
After receiving the 1st letter from you,
Every single day i receive a letter from you.
Every letter is a day before each other.
Every letter let me feel regret.
Every letter urge me to find you.
But i'm no courage to face what i have did.
During this period,
I'm regret why i have to do this.
why should i hurt you,
and why i didn't go look for you.
On the very next day i receive the letter from you which written on our first official meeting.
You come to me with a letter.
Without any saying,
i hugging you with all my might.
i just keep telling you,
"I love you"
You didn't push me back,
We hug together without giving a damn to the world around us.
this moment is the moment i never dare to dream off.
"The Moment of Happiness"
After we calm down,
she come into my room with me.
she is impressed that i have all her letter on the wall of my room.
Then we have read the letter she carry along.
And..... We finally believe in "Love at the first sight"
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Excuse & Reason
Among Excuse and Reason,
What really make them different?
Reason is the original motive for us to perform certain things.
Excuse is the good / bad intention of lie after we perform things.
When people ask our reason on doing things, they usually assume all explained reason as a Excuse. Especially you screw up certain things.
When we drunk, we usually do not think before act. End up we using Drunk as our Excuse as a shield to make us better. When it act as a sword that hurt other people.
So why we really need to have this two different things? what happen if we doesn't know anything called Excuse since we born. Will the world become better? Or This world doesn't have anything called Reason. Will the world become more straight forward?
Actually, i end up need to figure out myself. If we really look into it, we are masterpieces of conflict. Everything we do required us to choose.
Example of the conflict:
Actually i do not have any reason to write this post (Reason)
So, the reason i make this post is because i suddenly found this topic can be a post. (Excuse)
So..... actually Excuse and Reason has their own similarity.
The similarity is both also can be our action origin. Another saying is, The Answer is Come From Excuse or Reason or Both.
What really make them different?
Reason is the original motive for us to perform certain things.
Excuse is the good / bad intention of lie after we perform things.
When people ask our reason on doing things, they usually assume all explained reason as a Excuse. Especially you screw up certain things.
When we drunk, we usually do not think before act. End up we using Drunk as our Excuse as a shield to make us better. When it act as a sword that hurt other people.
So why we really need to have this two different things? what happen if we doesn't know anything called Excuse since we born. Will the world become better? Or This world doesn't have anything called Reason. Will the world become more straight forward?
Actually, i end up need to figure out myself. If we really look into it, we are masterpieces of conflict. Everything we do required us to choose.
Example of the conflict:
Actually i do not have any reason to write this post (Reason)
So, the reason i make this post is because i suddenly found this topic can be a post. (Excuse)
So..... actually Excuse and Reason has their own similarity.
The similarity is both also can be our action origin. Another saying is, The Answer is Come From Excuse or Reason or Both.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Love question?
Actually, i really had not got into any Love Relationship. So i really wonder how couples deal with their relationship. Eventually, i found that almost all people will hide those fact from almost everyone. Weird? This is not weird but it is a self protection for themselves. Because, all of them scare their relationship will be broken or stolen by other when they share their story. So, if you ask them about their past, they will mostly tell you yet not for telling the current love story of their.
So example, When you ask them how to deal with a love problem while letting them know you are not in love or anything, they might not tell you the truth of their thinking.
The Following Question is the question that i asked among all my friend regardless they in relationship or not.
Case Study
You and Your BF/GF is in a very steady relationship, and both of you treat each other quite well. But suddenly Your BF/GF told you this.
"You are not the one I love most, but i love you."
How would you react?
Answer From Male:
Answer From Female:
So example, When you ask them how to deal with a love problem while letting them know you are not in love or anything, they might not tell you the truth of their thinking.
The Following Question is the question that i asked among all my friend regardless they in relationship or not.
Case Study
You and Your BF/GF is in a very steady relationship, and both of you treat each other quite well. But suddenly Your BF/GF told you this.
"You are not the one I love most, but i love you."
How would you react?
Answer From Male:
Male A : "I Love you too, so let's break up"
Me : " Why you want to break up?"
Male A: "So that she can be together with the one she love most"
Male B : "Slap X10000"
Me : "To me or your gf?"
Male B : "Her"
Me : "Are you sure you can do it?"
Male B : "I will but she never say this to me, so i never do this to her"
Male C : "Nothing but keep in heart"
Me : "Will not do anything?"
Male C: "Yes"
Male D : "Dunno what to do, so will not do anything, just will remember"
Me : "Then, will you do anything special?"
Male D : "None, i will still love her"
Male E : "U R THE MOST I LOVE"
Me : "Great confession"
Answer From Female:
Female A : "Break up!"
I have no further clarify with her since i very shocked.......
Female B : "i will tell him: today i not ur most lover, but furture i will do,. and i'm the 1 cross hand with him till the end"
Me : "Wonderful!"
Female B: "Differenet living exprience"
Female C : "Same bah"
Me : "....... ok"
Female C : "Since we still not yet married, we still can change "
Female D : "Dunno"
Me : "Will not do anything?"
Female D : "Really Don't know how to answer this"
Female E : "Do Nothing"
Me : "Will you keep in your heart?"
Female E: "Secret~"
Female F : "I don't want to answer"
Me : "Just simple interview question?"
Female F: "I don't want to answer"
So what other answer will available? you all can leave your answer in the comment box or choose among of them such like Female A answer, F-A or male B answer, M-B
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Feeling~~~
Feeling, what an important element in our life.
Do we always rely on this element in our life? For me, I do.
I do agree when we have feeling toward to our work, it will progress greatly compare to those has no feeling toward their work. Yet, Feeling is also a double edge in everything.
Example, When we love our job or we have our passion toward our job. Our job will be done very quickly, nicely and quality. But when we hate our job, we will do everything slowly and lazy to improve ourselves.
So, Feeling will affect our working life. What about other?
Love?
Old old time, people will say, love require similar status, background and family. Then Old time, people will say feeling is must for Love. Now???
Current version of Love required more than just feeling, status, background and family. Among all girl in the world, Many but not all of them is just based on feeling yet include materialistic idea in it. Don't you all agree?
I'm sure some of them sure disagree as they really not materialistic. But are you sure you are not materialistic? Materialistic in Love can be almost anything, like for guys who want a "pretty" girlfriends, otherwise, girl want a "Handsome" boyfriend. So, please don't tell me that is feeling for you all to fall in to love.
If you all ask me, do I believe true love? I do. Yet those true love is just a guide, history or a dream for others. How many people is having true love in current social network? I won't say none of them, but at least i'm sure most of them is not.
Feeling in Hobby?
Certain hobby require feeling. Such as photography. Photography....... quite a deep field in my dictionary. People always say this is not photography, that is photography,..... this and that.... so what is photography?
My definition is when photographer take the picture with happy mood, then model also happy and finally all reader or observe like it. That is the photography for me.
And yet, i still very amateur in photography, so i quite surprise for so many other people to involve themselves in. Feeling..... yes.... we need feeling for each picture to make the picture more nature.
How to see feeling in the picture? For my case, when i saw a picture, i hope the 1st impression will be bit of "motion-like" mean.... the picture is not "dead". Actually we can always saw this, those "dead" picture, everything in it seems "dead". "dead" picture also a type of photography, but it has no feeling in it.
so...... time for me to continue my work....... tata~~~tata~~~
Do we always rely on this element in our life? For me, I do.
I do agree when we have feeling toward to our work, it will progress greatly compare to those has no feeling toward their work. Yet, Feeling is also a double edge in everything.
Example, When we love our job or we have our passion toward our job. Our job will be done very quickly, nicely and quality. But when we hate our job, we will do everything slowly and lazy to improve ourselves.
So, Feeling will affect our working life. What about other?
Love?
Old old time, people will say, love require similar status, background and family. Then Old time, people will say feeling is must for Love. Now???
Current version of Love required more than just feeling, status, background and family. Among all girl in the world, Many but not all of them is just based on feeling yet include materialistic idea in it. Don't you all agree?
I'm sure some of them sure disagree as they really not materialistic. But are you sure you are not materialistic? Materialistic in Love can be almost anything, like for guys who want a "pretty" girlfriends, otherwise, girl want a "Handsome" boyfriend. So, please don't tell me that is feeling for you all to fall in to love.
If you all ask me, do I believe true love? I do. Yet those true love is just a guide, history or a dream for others. How many people is having true love in current social network? I won't say none of them, but at least i'm sure most of them is not.
Feeling in Hobby?
Certain hobby require feeling. Such as photography. Photography....... quite a deep field in my dictionary. People always say this is not photography, that is photography,..... this and that.... so what is photography?
My definition is when photographer take the picture with happy mood, then model also happy and finally all reader or observe like it. That is the photography for me.
And yet, i still very amateur in photography, so i quite surprise for so many other people to involve themselves in. Feeling..... yes.... we need feeling for each picture to make the picture more nature.
How to see feeling in the picture? For my case, when i saw a picture, i hope the 1st impression will be bit of "motion-like" mean.... the picture is not "dead". Actually we can always saw this, those "dead" picture, everything in it seems "dead". "dead" picture also a type of photography, but it has no feeling in it.
so...... time for me to continue my work....... tata~~~tata~~~
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
New Start of a Never Ending Life
Hi guys and gals who reading my blog.
I got a Question to ask you all before i get proceed with this post.
"What is a blog?" or "Does blog having any meaning for you all?" or In short, "What do you want from a blog?"
As i previously created many many blog yet i stop blogging for quite a long time, somehow i feel like i wasting certain domain storage. So end up i get a decision to put everything that i wanted to write into this blog.
I'm not sure how you all feel about my blog name, yet i feel that, once we join blogging, our Life will never end~~
So this also a declaration for my new start in my blogging life.
However, today i think i get some curse from someone for having flu during my working period. Just hope that people will stop cursing me TT^TT
I got a Question to ask you all before i get proceed with this post.
"What is a blog?" or "Does blog having any meaning for you all?" or In short, "What do you want from a blog?"
As i previously created many many blog yet i stop blogging for quite a long time, somehow i feel like i wasting certain domain storage. So end up i get a decision to put everything that i wanted to write into this blog.
I'm not sure how you all feel about my blog name, yet i feel that, once we join blogging, our Life will never end~~
So this also a declaration for my new start in my blogging life.
However, today i think i get some curse from someone for having flu during my working period. Just hope that people will stop cursing me TT^TT
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